For Lola Mommy

You are my soul mate and you are my everything.

Please say you'll stay and I promise to hold you till my last breath.

I am willing to give my life for you, just assure me that you'll live long for me and for us.

I love you more than I do.

and I am thankful that you feel the same way too

You are my strength and my only inspiration to be ON TOP.

people says that "I can't make it" but you believe to me that "I can make the impossible, POSSIBLE"

Thank you for being my friend, my best friend, my listener, my love, my partner, my mother and my beloved Grandmother...

I want the whole world to know, How much I care for you. I am willing to give up everything just to be with YOU

I love you in the morning, in the afternoon and in the evening before we go to bed to sleep... and I love you in the days that follows

I love you and I will say it till Im exhausted saying it.

Please stay long and dont tell me words that will crash my world, YOU are the center of my life next to HIM.

Please be with me, hold still till I have reach my dreams and let me show you the hardworks that I have accomplished.

it is all yours.

Hold on a little bit longer. Be with me everyday... I promise to go home early as you always wish...and make you sweet coffee in Mid Morning

Dont let weakness conquer you, please welcome my Happiness for you.

Please, Oh Please...

-I get emotional one rainy morning when I woke up and sit beside her, she said "Paano ako pagnamatay ako, Ikaw na bahala sa akin ah"

I sobbed quietly and told her “Oo naman ako bahala sa’yo”.

And I hold her hands.

L

Thoughts

have you ever waited for something or someone that you are longing to have, and you devoted your life and precious time to achieve it but at the end, the long wait is worthless.

Believing, hoping and praying for a miracle to happen for that special moment to come even if you know to yourself it is not meant for you but still you hold tight fooling yourself it will come true

mixing reality from day dreaming is hard to resist as if it is the only way to be in the world that you wanted. A world full of promises that compromise your dreams.

In time, in perfect time you realize with yourself that you need to move forward and set free of your worries and fulfill your dreams on your own. Dreams that will define your worth and existence according to your preferences.

No one can stop you from believing what you know is right and you deserve, you don't owe anyone an explanation for every moves you will do. You are what you are because you do what you do.

Trust yourself, be the person you want to be and move forward to the path of your own destiny.

No one knows what lays ahead, discover it and be the master of your own fate.

You will be history and your story will be remembered   

Saturdate

Friday night when Geejay sent an SMS to me, asking if I’m free on Saturday afternoon I‘ve checked my schedule right away and told him that i’ll be attending my training in the morning and will be free in the afternoon, definitely it’s a YES.

                

Saturday morning: He informed me that Julius will be with us and they will meet at Taft –MRT Station at 12:30pm. I’ve told him that I will be late because I’ve extended my 1 on 1 session.

                

1:00pm, Bench FIX Robinsons Galleria Julius I’ve arrived and been reunited with Geejay, Julius and Gladys. Julius is having his haircut, cool. While waiting we had a small talk about each other’s affair after that V-Mall and Promenade at Greenhills.

                

We helped Geejay to find “ah phone”, 3:00pm we’ve decided for a late lunch. Unanimous choice, Bon Chon. Yum yum! Let’s eat!

Reflection

I literally feel big whenever I look in the mirror that’s one good reason why I avoid grooming myself. Simply, I hate to see my reflection, even though people tells me that I’ve changed drastically in my physical appearance still I see the old me, the obese kid. Paranoid huh? Yes I am, just having hard time with my diet and 1 on 1 training. I need motivation.

Journal 101

I am Byron Cantonjos, almost four years ago I weigh 190lbs. I decided to loose weight because of my insecurities with other people who used to be “normal looking” compared to my “plus size appearance”. To be big and be called “pig” is just usual to me that's why never in my wildest dream to be physically fit and engaged myself in a healthy lifestyle because during those doomed days of mine I always thought how to pleasure myself in terms of eating. I've didn't notice that I'm getting “bigger and healthier”... and my story telling begins, being an overweight teenager.

Everything is NEW and BIG

I started my career in one of the largest, profitable and innovative company.

I am still wandering that before it is a fantasy, but now it is a reality

I have a new environment

I am still adjusting, observing and learning the culture inside the company

One of my good friend

One of my good friend, Presci inspired me when I've shared to her my “worries” about some people that surrounds me, she told me that never be attached with people that I trust the most. Be a “friend” if needed and if they forget you, don’t bother to ask why… the answer is “They know that you are there for them in times of troubles and sometimes in happiness” but “when you call for them to listen, to help you out to lessen your burden/pain, they don’t care about your stories, they prefer to highlights their own tales”.

My childhood dreams (till the present time…)

Dream Big Baron

When I was three I dreamt to be a Magician and cut in half a woman’s body (but I realized it’s just a trick).

One “family member” in every generation takes up Education. I was five when I thought I am that “person” but Auntie once told me that “being a teacher is not a profession it’s a noble vocation”.

When I reached the age of 8 all I wanted is to enter University of Sto .Tomas, I don’t know why but I simply fascinated whenever I see the said school.

When I entered high school I vision to be an accountant, my dad used to work in an Accounting Firm here in Manila, His office mates influenced me to love Math, at first I hate the said subject (but dealing with numbers challenges me more).

When the time comes that I must decide in what field I must pursue in college, I desired to be a Fine Arts major, I used to paint and sketch as well as to love doing collages and abstract arts but Mom and Dad said firmly “There’s no future in your chosen course, son”.

A month before my High school graduation, I went to Mapua Institute of Technology (MIT) to inquire in their curriculum and courses but a massive number of students are protesting regarding some issues about the school’s management. I was discouraged to take engineering course.

Mom and Dad decides on my behalf, I was 16 way back then, I entered Colegio de San Juan de Letran, taking up Bachelor of Science in Information Technology. I never been in love with “Technology” I must say I desire to be one in nature or arts (but they know best, right?)

A year and half (or three semester) I transferred in Adamson University to continue my field of study. I’m turning 18 when I appreciated IT, the course is broad but you can always HAVE a choice to choose to pursue the path you desire the most.

A month before my College commencement exercises I am busy hunting for work. I want to be a programmer : After graduation, I aspire to be a project manager(PM).

Then a realization rocks my thoughts, I was 22 a year ago when I told myself that “hey, you need a concrete plan… need to establish a career, a path in your own choice… dream big but reachable not just imaginable…”

I started to think, I’m no good in programming (Yes, I can execute commands but developing a project is a hard task to do and being a PM needs working experience, solid background in management and leading a team)

I’m near 23 years old when I landed a JOB. I must say the path that I’m engaging today is not the field that I have handle or encountered in the past, I’m learning new things and adapting my new environment. Its tough task but I want to accomplish my dreams. Now I know what path I’m really wanted to pursue and I will start building my foundation to reach my goals. In time I’ll achieve my desire position and career path… in time… in time…

More than thankful

Yesterday I am with Eteng and Geejay, what will you expect when we are together--- Nothing but the best time to date.

Since I miss Eteng, I have sent an SMS to her along with Geejay to set “GALA”.

-I fetch Geejay at Isetan around 11am in the morning (Sunday), we have started our day eating in Jollibee... as usual FIESTA royale is mine and him just enough for his body hehe...

-We went to DV (short for divisoria) without eteng... She's too busy in her household choirs so We've decided to pay a visit in her place. Around 2 o’clock in the afternoon we have arrived at her humble abode.

-Yehey! Free merienda… Banana with Sago – crashed ice on the side and soda for our refresher.

-A never ending “tripping” and story telling before ending up to watch a film, Arem suggests “Snow white and the Huntsman” and He added up “Libre n’yo ko kasi birthday nyong dalawa” referring to me and Aizel.

-After a decade of waiting for Aizel (she fixed her self for us, taking a bath, wearing her make up and etc)

-Robinson’s Ermita is the place to be… but before entering the said establishment. I’ve seen Kwek kwek stand (street food). So we ate there and there… hehe

-after the food tripping, we go right ahead to the Cinema house to buy our tickets. We have reservation at 6.50pm Cinema 2. Since its too early, we buy fries, float and waffle for our snacks

-ooppss Filbar’s Bookstore. (alam na) I bought a back issue of FHM (November 2011) Ornusa and Sanya are the cover girls… Ulalala while Arem get a copy of a photography Magazine for half the price, cool.

-I forgot to mention that eteng have a new camera (GE)… one two three click click :D

-Inside the theater house while watching … a never endless kulitan… Eteng si so entailed to the film… Arem pinch her and whisper “PBB Teens” haha

-A great film! We take pictures in the poster outside the cinema 2… and when we are in the escalator… Arem have seen CrePes and Crème… Eteng is craving for sweets and so do I. It ended

up treating them, (ehh ganun talaga I can’t say no because Eteng will celebrate her 25th year in this world,old haha

-pictures and pictures…plans over plans… laughter with laughter then we bid farewell… till next time :)

Trio | Since College days | Friends | Separate Lives

Last Goodbye

That would be the last (for the mean time) and I say today, this is my last goodbye.

I am really thankful that I've been with people that show me the way out to my freedom. Freedom to think out loud, choice of peers to go along with and most specially I had learned to handle different emotions, characteristics, lies, truths and memories. I owe them a lot.

Those years are precious, I value every moment that I have shared with each of you. But I need to move forward to rediscover myself, to refresh my thoughts, to cleanse all the worries, pains and dire memories of the past. This is my preference, to be alone (for a while) and remove myself in a system. a scheme that’s no growth. I wanted to soar without them holding my hands, set me free from your shadows. I want to be me

To go against the usual and face its consequences

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Just My Imagination

To be honest, I don’t know how to start this writing because there are a lot of issues that I’m thinking right now. After my One Conversation with my Boss Manager Chief (Manager) I am really happy with her explanation and the 360 feedback from my officemates. I will quote some encouraging words that I have remembered.

“Hard working”

“Always on time”

“Willing/eager to learn”

“…actively participated with every event…”

Those words are enough, more than enough to uplift my spirit to be productive and motivated to do the best I could deliver.

However, there are factors to be considered.

The only hindrance to level up is those people who are afraid to share their precious knowledge to others, they are envy to see people achieving their goals, and they are greedy to do all the task that should be distributed for ALL… well one thing is for sure, I have seen and felt their kind,

I will give an example/s.

I am constantly asking my superior regarding an issue, HE advised me to escalate and send an email to a specific monitoring team for proper case handling (that’s what he thought). I argue for a while (that this command should be executed to solve the issue) but HE insists, HE knows best, right? The following day a major escalation greeted my morning. (How nice superior you really know everything, right). Now I’m enjoying his GREAT work, deduction from my ratings, how nice again. Be thankful superior I am not the type of person who will clean my hands for the sake of salvation.

Greedy is the right term to be used instead of AGGRESSIVE (to do work). I know two to three people who are very bold to do all the task that are assigned with him/her but even the task that you are currently working will be getting from you and they will assign it in their own names, how nice? Isn’t it?. Question, why do people are afraid if someone are learning from them or from others, thus that matter? Or it might cause harm with them? Answer, they are GREEDY and SELFISH. No need to explain.

Why there are people who love to criticize you whenever you fall from your mistake instead of uplifting your moral to be well the next time they tend to pull you down, how nice.

I am really thankful with my Manager for believing that I can do things beyond what I am expected to do. Thank you for those words of enlightenment, thank you for being supportive, you are a true Manager.

For FY12, I will be a different person; I hate to play the GAME that you provoke me to deal with. ONE thing is for sure, I can play the GAME, better than you do.

It will be a mirror effect, I am much aware now, how you crazy people act and I’m really eager to have my comeback.

Glance

Last night, I sat beside her, with my Mommy (Grandmother). I have helped her to change her clothes and diaper, as I glance at her unnoticeably she aged so much and talk minimal this pass few days, weeks, months, years. I missed those days when she Is sharing her tales of survival during world war 2, those times she cook breakfast and merienda for me and especially those night that she will wait for me to arrive before going to bed.I love those days… I’m hoping and praying that God grant her more strength, courage and wisdom to see us mature and achieve our dreams. I love you, more than I do.

Better Plan:

I've realized a lot these past few days about myself. Someone saying within me that this time around I should “enjoy” myself.  I should stop planning about the future; I should start to see the present, myself today. I want to live my life even for a single day without caring for other people. Just for this time, I want to experience “freedom”, lifting all the worries unto Him. 

                I want to do things carelessly without even thinking the precautionary measures.

                I desire to explore the hidden and known places here in the Philippines

                I dream to finish a “Full Marathon” in my best time possible.

                I crave for sweet foods and eat as if I’m not caring for my diet

                I want to tryout different sports such as Muay thai or MMA

                I am hoping to join Triathlon in the near future.

                I fancy spending my money on things I dream to have

                I vision myself besides the woman i will love for the rest of my life.

                I visualize my future house with my family

                And to continue believing that He exists in my heart.

                All of those I’ve mentioned will be part of the better me next year.

                

Freedom

36th National Milo Marathon (finals)

Since my first glorious attempt in 21 k category last December 2, 2012. Here I am again running under the same category, I’ve managed to finished the 36th National Milo Marathon with my personal record of 2 hours 30 minutes at seaside area of Mall Of Asia – Pasay.

I arrived 30 minutes before the gun start. I’ve stretched my body to warm it up. I’ve noticed the volume of runners, as per the host, there were 2900 plus participant in 21k category alone.

“The best of the best are here” the host added

“Ikaw bakit ka tumatakbo?”

Suddenly I asked myself the same question. I’ve answered “For fitness and in health as well as to fulfill my dream to finish the full marathon hoping next year”.

All runners were energetic as we had heard the gun shot that marks the start of the much anticipated event of the year.

I run in my comfortable speed, my goal was to finish the race in my best effort possible.

Along the trail going up in the flyover I managed to sustain my energy opps there’s another one. Upon the u-turn going back in the two treacherous flyovers I felt muscle cramps, I do not push myself to run, so I walked.

As I regained my momentum I run at my utmost speed because I’ve heard a runner besides me said “last 9 minutes before the cut off time for 21k category”.

I run, run, run and run! I felt the pain still I run! Motivating myself “Kaya mo ‘yan Baron”

Like Milo’s motto “kaya ‘yan” and I’ve finished my second half marathon. Another experience to add up in my running portfolio.

So happy! Second medal! I’m on track!

                 

10 years of friendship and counting…

Yesterday, February 6, 2012 the much anticipated reunion marks an excitement and memorable bonding experience with my High School buddies. Alma and Presci. We had much fun eating Halo – halo flavored Ice cream, 50 (fifty pesos) worth of fries and regular burger for me, plus kwek kwek and soda as our finale meal. We talked about everything under the sun, school mates, jobs, working relation, love life, investment, cyber chatting, sexual harassment, investment, house and lot, properties, land titles and a lot more. How I wish I do have lots of time to be with them but the bottom line is, “Not seeing each other for a long period of time doesn’t mean the friendship is lost, the bond is still there, much stronger and wiser”

Thanks Alma and Tita Marcela for the warm accommodation you've given us. I know I am always welcome to your family
Presci, Thanks for the post birthday treat. The much awaited ice cream delight had happened yesterday.

Hope to see both soon for more old and new stories.

Smart Conversation

Last night I had a great time sharing stories with the taxi driver. We started our “smart” conversation with the modus of crooks now a days. He told me that last Saturday night he picked up two (old guy) passengers near Zapote, the other guy seated in the back had left immediately before the taxi starts its engine. The passenger in front seat asked him if he could open the window to smoke and the driver abide. According to the driver, the passenger had two sticks of cigarette before he closed the window of the cab. Suddenly, the passenger requested if he could barrow 500 pesos from the driver but before that they have a casual conversation.